FEAR (some or less?)

I'm afraid of YOU! Yeah, YOU.
In fact, I am afraid of you more than I am afraid of GOD.
I know that God will still love me no matter what,
but you, I know behind all those masks,
everything you had, give, and left for me is Hatred.


I'm afraid of You, You You.
I'm afraid, I'll be like you.
I'm afraid to turn out to be that hypocrite bitch without even realize it.
I'm afraid..
I'm afraid I'll be trapped in my blind self, just like you.

The first stage is I hate you.
Then, I become obsessed by you!
I try to trace your every lies, your every moves
In the end, I hate you even more!

Now, I questioned myself. Why would I hate you?
I hate you because I'm afraid of you.
I'm afraid of you because you hate me. ME. MYSELF.
You ENVY me.

And now, I pity you fool.
Now I know..yet I understand
Every moves you make, every words you say is like a pile of dust.
Get blown away and then disappear without no one hears.

Even when you are not trying to be perfect,
You have already been noone and nothing.
So why, why would I hate an empty jar when I have a full jar of exciting life?
I guess, I'm sick of you.

But now, NOW I am ready to let you go.
I want to forgive and forget you.
I don't want to be burdened by this hatred.
I want to live my life fully until the end.

Besides, I don't want to hurt those who genuinely love me.
I don't want to make mistakes the way you do:
That's the only thing I learn from you.
I don't want to trade my full jar into an empty one.
I do not want to wake up one day in regret.
WASTED time, the only thing you can not recycle.

This is me, letting you go.
Thanks for teaching me the most important thing in life.
I want to smile and laugh until
I have dimples in my cheeks, tears in my eyes.
Surrounded by my loved ones.

Resurrection.

HW in L